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My Little World Too Big
(1995) Home is safe. At home, I can control things. But … I need to go out. I almost have to try surprise myself with this decision. If there’s premeditation, it starts the countdown. I have only minutes I can survive out in the world, so even when I know I might need to go out, I just can’t alert myself to when I’ll do it. So I’ll do things to distract myself. To lose myself in some façade of normalcy. Write. Play a computer game. Read— And, then, I’ll jump into my car. Driving a car is stupidly unsafe when you’re an agoraphobic, but it’s the only way to…
That Other Me
(General) I don’t remember a time in my life before anxiety. I do remember having too many thoughts, too big an imagination, and too wide a gulf between my highs and lows. The anxiety in my teens was a separator…
Star Trek V: (Beyond) The Final Frontier?
If you ask any Trekker which is the worst of the original series movies, they’ll tell you Star Trek V: The Final Frontier. In it, Kirk and company’s shore leave (on Earth) is cut short because they’re required to take…